I'm starting to suspect that the solution may not to try to do more, necessarily, but to learn to be in the present moment in a way without judging it or wishing it were something else. So that if a persyn is in a pleasurable moment of "dallying away" the evening with a friend, I think it's about learning to be with the friend without wishing you were at home doing taxes or reading. On the other hand, to also discipline yourself to do work and be with the pain of fatigue, boredom, or don't-feel-like-it-ness -- that is, resistance. Not to fight it or wish the experience were something else. Too picky - sometimes I might even be on a date with a great persyn at a great restaurant and having great conversation, and think something like, 'It'd be perfect, except the temperature could be ten degrees cooler.' Imagine how worse it is, then, when four or five requisites for a pleasurable experience are off, instead of just one!

It's raining today. A big fat torrential rain, to follow up on the harrowing blustery windyness that came splat at the coast a few days ago. Wash away my badnesses. Tomorrow is a new day. Tonight is a new evening. 1 PM is a new hour for a new kipsy mipsey.